It is amazing how the death of a child no matter who's child or where in the world he or she is, affects a parent.
One of our babynet moms lost her little daughter, Sandra on Sunday. Last week we heard about the accident, but we were all holding on to hopes and prayers that a miracle would pull her through. Unfortunately on Sunday the doctors and the parents made the decision to turn the machines off. We all mourned her death even though most of us have never met these people in real life. Sandra's mom Jessica, posted a bit and had Sandra's photo on her signature after every post she made. I got so used to seeing this little face with tearful eyes looking back at me, and just the thought that she is now gone makes me go numb.
I hate to think what her poor parents are going through. Some moms from babynet have set off balloons in her honour. I think of her when I light candles in the evening. I can't seem to get her picture out of my head and I have only ever seen this one photo of her. I don't even know how old she was but on the photo she doesn't look older than 3 years old.
I know no words will bring her back, and who knows if her mom will ever even come back on line and read all the condolences, poems and messages that have been written to her. I don't think I would have the strenght to come back to a site where mothers still have their children, who talk about their kids and their unborn children, who carry on with life as if nothing has happened. That is the way I'd feel. I'd want the world to stop, I'd want to die myself.
I think of the times I have been angry at Thomas and wanted to hit him. Or the times that I have moaned about having to get up in the middle of the night to see to the kids, or to change nappies or to feed.
Life is so precious, especially that of a small child.
RIP little Sandra, may you soar with the rest of the angels that have been sent to heaven before their time.
One of our babynet moms lost her little daughter, Sandra on Sunday. Last week we heard about the accident, but we were all holding on to hopes and prayers that a miracle would pull her through. Unfortunately on Sunday the doctors and the parents made the decision to turn the machines off. We all mourned her death even though most of us have never met these people in real life. Sandra's mom Jessica, posted a bit and had Sandra's photo on her signature after every post she made. I got so used to seeing this little face with tearful eyes looking back at me, and just the thought that she is now gone makes me go numb.
I hate to think what her poor parents are going through. Some moms from babynet have set off balloons in her honour. I think of her when I light candles in the evening. I can't seem to get her picture out of my head and I have only ever seen this one photo of her. I don't even know how old she was but on the photo she doesn't look older than 3 years old.
I know no words will bring her back, and who knows if her mom will ever even come back on line and read all the condolences, poems and messages that have been written to her. I don't think I would have the strenght to come back to a site where mothers still have their children, who talk about their kids and their unborn children, who carry on with life as if nothing has happened. That is the way I'd feel. I'd want the world to stop, I'd want to die myself.
I think of the times I have been angry at Thomas and wanted to hit him. Or the times that I have moaned about having to get up in the middle of the night to see to the kids, or to change nappies or to feed.
Life is so precious, especially that of a small child.
RIP little Sandra, may you soar with the rest of the angels that have been sent to heaven before their time.
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